there is nothing more disappointing and depressing to know someone you'd treasured and loved turns out to be someone you always hated. honestly speaking im suffering a dilemma if i should hold on and swallow up all those lies and continue to choke on alibis or should i just remember that there is such a word as to forget. both options are quite unfavorable first if i continue i would just end up being nothing more than a loser and second to forget seems the best options for this yet it would still leave a scar that would always remind me of those delusions in the past. well i think this is what we call life, if i still insists and keep whining about these things happening to me how much more if i move on to the real world of survival and competition in the near future what would i be? i just do hope what is happening right now would settle soon, i really need to be happy! that's all i need for now though im not certain on what really makes me happy, i hope someone there could just cheer me up

Again after three long months of slumber (though i had summer class) back to school.

I can't imagine i am on my second year in college already, time went by so fast as if everything is on a state of calamity. Oh well i guess i should be better now, more focus and more persevering to surpass and survive this year without being wounded. So prepare for battle and i will meet you all in the lifecamp

Things I (I supposed us) hate during this vacation
(updated)

*boredom
*monotony
*feeling of nostalgia
*Unusual Sleeping pattern (you know what i mean)
*sense of isolation
*heat + humidity = global warming
*lack of allowance
*pain of missing someone


well on the other hand these things has also its positive implication among us.
e.g it drives us to do something
be it senseless or productive.

hello there! fellas! im really preoccupied with alot of things good thing i can still go online to check emails and stuff and most of all update my DA account..haha! gees! well i wish for a relaxing vacation after all those stressing school works i am going through! till here!
uh by the way! happy birthday to my lil brother Roi Red

its been a month since i have last posted something from the journal..im not really a writer type of person

well anyway! february has been a crucial month for most of college students.. Its a month of hardwork, pain and pleasure.. but why? here are some reasons why i attribute these to the month of february

First ..talking about hardwork.. its a month where your professors gives you a lot of activities and tasks thesis & research papers to name a few
Second pain.. in line with alot of school tasks comes pain.. the pain of cramming, chasing on deadlines
perhaps the pain of feeling like giving up! after doin things till midnight or even minutes before the break of dawn. Third its a month of pleasure.. but hey... dont make a mistake of putting up different meaning on these lines..haha! its a month of pleasure for its where valentines day is celebrated... guys saving up their bucks to buy the flowers, chocolates, stuff toys and etcetera..dinner dates & the likes..a month to cherish happy moments with your loved ones or even friends..

well so long for this entry... i dnt know when ill be writing again!!